Thread:Rose thorn rocks/@comment-27147599-20180222015503/@comment-27824390-20180223010640

"yes, I did.. what about it?" Rueben asked her

Wolf's knuckles turned white then sighed heavily, "You know.... Mom finally found someone who will love her for her.... You know... Ever since dad died in battle with you..." she said the last part softly then sat down in front of the grave, holding the hilt of the sword tightly. "So....Ayla finally made me the general... I'm sure if you were here, you'd be a better one.... Espically since everyone actually listened to you... And heeded your words wisely... Heh... I had to scratch a man's side with my sword and kick one in the butt just to get Sir. Simons attention... Even then.... he didn't listen to me" she huffed. "But I know you would.." her eyes teared up slightly, then scoffed. "Look at me... i'm tearing up again..." she muttered dryly to her brothers grave, then paused, "There's also one more thing... I work harder than everyone else there.... Funny how that plays out right? I ask for one break, and he threatens to fire me. So what do I do? Quite... Yay me..." she muttered sarcastically then paused, pretending her brother said something then sighed, shaking her head. "I went to Ayla to tell her about it.... Mainly so I wouldn't be the one to blame for that one thing at least... And we talked a bit... She's worried, Jeffery... That she won't be able to fight him.. But I know she'll do amazingly well... It's just this crappy army... It seems like i'm one of the only ones working hard.. They get long breaks, and I mean long breaks. Like from the afternoon to when the training ends.. And I work four hours a day, training by myself" she scoffed, the grip on the hilt of her sword tightening. "All because they don't want to train with a 'woman'. Can you believe that? Yeah........ I guess you'd side with me huh..? yeah, I know you would... You were never like most men here... You tried your best to understand all points of the situation.. Even a ladies side of the story when she was getting the blame for what a man did.." she sighed heavily, "it's.... So hard.." she bit into her bottom lip to hold back a sob, "without you... Everything's a daze.. days go by in a blurr.. The only relief I can seem to find lately is by practically killing the dummies I practice with... And even then... The pain won't go away...... You knew out of everyone... That i'm just horrible when it comes to expressing myself with words... I always had to fight it out.... but that's just not working anymore... maybe that's why I came today instead of coming tomorrow to visit you... I could always tell you what I was thinking without getting scolded for 'not being a lady', or 'talking out of line' or 'talking when not spoken to'." She scoffed at the last one, her dry sense of humor coming back to her quickly before whispering softly. "that's why I could trust you with every little secret I had.... Like when I stole dad's sword, and tried to train myself to use it" she chuckled softly, smiling very faintly now. "Dad found out, and was yelling at me...Mom was scolding me for even doing such a 'unlady-like thing'." She said in a squeaky voice then smiled sadly, "and unlike others who were just watching.... You stepped in, and said 'I said she could do it... It's all on me'." she put her head in her hands, body shaking, "Why did you have to go....?"